School is stressful and homework is pressing and the time of semester comes where a million and two things need to get done and not enough time, so devotions and quiet time slips from my hands. And I am left empty and fighting against thoughts, feelings and actions that are not honouring to my Prince.
I was reading a book (for men) about how to be Men of God and Defenders of those who can not defend themselves. The author talked about ways that the devil attempts to destroy the relationship with our prince (king) through defilement, delusion, d-something and distraction. My name is Erika Rauws and I was distracted. I was so consumed with papers reading and other homework that I neglected spending genuine time with my prince. Instead I always doing homework and spending time with friends.
On Thursday I knew that I need to go on a date with Jesus but I was distracted. Thursday night was bible study but this week were out visiting the elderly, I was going to go on my date then but their weren't enough people to go visiting so I did that instead. Friday night I made plans with friends and thought it was important to build a relationship with them (and glad that I could talk with them) so I had to cancel my date again. Saturday was consumed by laundry, homework, work and more homework; didn't have time to go on that date. Sunday afternoon was filled with more homework, this time i avoided going on that date.
Then Monday. Go to work and get to school and walking to class someone points out that my water bottle is leaking... more like literally POURING out of my purse. Nothing was damaged which was good but everything was soaked.
Day at School: Finished.
I walked back to my locker, packed my bags and drove home. Well actually went Christmas decorating shopping and bought notebook and then went home. I made my journal re packed my bags and FINALLY went on my date with Jesus. Two hours in my favourite coffee shop reading my bible. 5 days later. Doesn't seem like a long time but on Monday I felt like I was neglecting my best friend and missed some one dearly. Turns out I was missing him. ALOT!
For a while now I had stopped looking for him, stopped talking to him and stopped listening to him. I felt myself sliding down this slippery slope for a while. But now the process of restoring our relationship has begun. The incredable this is that he never left me. HE was the one who made the effort of getting my attention. And I am grateful the the relationship that I have with him is two sided. He has given everything for me and is willing to chase after me, and I have finally stopped running, I am catching my breath and walking towards his arms, ready to rest in Him.
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