Still Catching My Breath

Last night was one of those useless nights where nothing goes right. My Internet wasn't working, I did the wrong questions for my anatomy class and I couldn't concentrate on anything due to previous distractions. All I wanted to do was cry because I thought that my life was going absolutely horrible because I needed to do homework and I could not... so I did dishes instead.

As I was doing dishes I decided to give myself a reality check and be logical in the midst of my emotional chaos of the evening. So I sat down and start writing out all the blessing that I did have, from having a warm bed, to having food to eat, to being able to read a book in my spare time (not that I actually have any of that but...). It turns out I had about 2+ pages and that wasn't even thinking super hard...well kinda hard but not like brain racking hard.

Before I started writing God asked me if He was enough?
Before I started writing I said no

After I finished writing God asked me if He was enough?
After I finished writing I said yes

God then asked
If I take everything away from you, will you still say yes?

Good question I replied because from this week it doesn't seem like my answer would be yes.
I am like the rich young ruler who walks away with his head down because I do not know if I could do it... kinda sounds ironic coming from a girl who wants to leave everything and go to India huh?
Well it is because I am a sinful and lost my focus. God had to let me get here to get my attention

He got it back when he said this

In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

HIS LIGHT WILL NEVER BE OVERCOME BY DARKNESS

I will never be overcome by darkness