Its been over a week which means that I need to update! It is midterm which means that it is one hectic stressful week, now with two midterms behind me I am exhausted and I still have clinical prep for tomorrow. Thursday night will mostly be spent on the couch :) I just need to make it there.
Something that I tend to do when exams/midterms come is I get into the "zone". Nothing matters except, eat, sleep and study. So I often forget of things that have happened early in the week that are really rather important. One of those things being Sunday.
Over the past little while have been really struggling with having anything to do with God because I have placed myself under the law again. As a academic student I am driven to do know all that I can and be right as possible to get the good marks and so that I can be a good nurse. This was translating into my spiritual life. I was assuming that God wanted me to be good so that I was accepted by him and that he would bless me. I was stuck in the law.
All during that week I was really contemplating this idea that I was not choosing to follow him. I knew that I had to make a choice and order to do that I needed an awaking. So Sunday came around and I had the week off of Sunday school. I usually still go because consistency is important to establish good relationships with the kids there.
Between putting my coat up and walking I landed in the sanctuary instead of Sunday School. Being there was a blessing.Through the musical worship and the Lord's supper Jesus reminded me of something very simple.
HE LOVES ME
He loved me even when I sucked. Like royally sucked and had no concept of who he was or what he done. He has always loved me. That Sunday was definitely refreshed me that day and I think it really helped me get through these two midterms. God is good, even when I am not.
AMAZING, MY GOD IS AMAZING. HE HAS NO BOUNDS AND NO LIMITS.
Jesus please help me never forget that.
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